March 18, 2024
Today, i want to practise my english by making a script for myself. kind of introduce myself. this morning during my way to school, i felt my heart throbbing quickly because of the conflict between me and my class teacher. the reason why it is is because i don’t want to go to school regularly. the school is full of meaningless nonsense. in order to learn something, i have to immerse myself in the book or the videos i like when i stay at home. that makes me kind of satisfied. i know that sounds pretty odd to some people. i agreed with that opinon. i just too boring and try to write something in english. that is kind of called output?
March 19, 2024
Teachers always tell me if you don’t have enough input, there will be no output for you when learning a language. so i decided to write a note each day to practice. no matter how short it is, i just keep doing this.
March 24, 2024
it’s been almost a moth since i made the choice of learning a completely new language, japanese. and i am sort of ashamed because i can’t even remember the so-called 50 sounds, hiragana, and Katakana. it is probably because i am loafing around all the time. Oh, i’ve learned a new word. fuck japanese. so fuking complicated.
March 27, 2024
Lately, i’ve been had a fever. it’s like i am gonna die. rhinitis also bothers me. fuck… why should i suffer from this. i just want to be a normal guy, not to mention a transgender. and why should learn these fucking math question, just to pass the exam or to develop some mc mods? it just keeps annoying me. i try to replace the word “annoy”, but i forgot something to do this.
Oh, i now am reminded of the word. it is “linger”.
March 29, 2024
I found myself keeping diaries more regularly. i don’t think it’s a good idea. anyway, let’s talk about myself. lately, i’ve been reading the book “the three body problem” at night, at morning, when i am in class, when i am on the subway. i am impressed by the plot of thie book. right now, i am exhausted after having done some math questions because i calculate wrong over and over. i was kind of being mad just now. i think i still need to keep learning math until i can solve most of the question in the exam.
March 30, 2024
When i walked in the street, it felt like everybody was looking at me.
April 5, 2024
So, I force myself to learn something just to pass the so-called Independent enrollment exam? It’s not what i want. I want more than that like do something i like or more significant.
enrollment: the act of officially joining a course, school, etc.; the number of people who do this Enrolment is the first week of September. School enrolments are currently falling.
April 12, 2024
I haven’t write diaries for a while. As the day moves on, it seems that i have forgotten my initial intention. I simply want to develop minecraft hacked client. that’s all i ever want. but lately i felt frustrated by some pointless little things. anyway, let’s talk about myself. today, waking up i learning some japanese. which i think is so goddamn complicated. the main reason which i think is for most of the part, it has so many euphemisms. it is very unfriendly for beginners. And there comes the main part. that is i have to learn math for my dream. but it is also useful. after all, one day i need to pass some kind of exam. not only that, but also developing a mod needs math.
my english is really bad. i need to keep watching more youtube videos from now on. So in the following section, i decided to describe in my native language.
April 18, 2024
Just finished reading the speech of taylor swift’s, or specifically, a interview. Today is like one of the days in a year. i’ve learnt some math about vector. And know about some ip knowledge. the process of studying something is kinda boring. but i think i can get through it.
April 18, 2024
April 26, 2024
So, another good time for writing notes. The plan to learn Japanese is almost stranded. by the way, i decided to learn java again instead. And why I am here writing these stuff is because i want to make a habit of it. That’s all.
April 30, 2024
It always has been raining outside. Perhaps, the East Asian rainy season(a climate in China) is coming. where i live is all wet and dump. it makes my head dizzy. Today, another day of monotony, i woke with the intention of eating something. as usual, i took out my phone to decide to get a takeout. In China, takeout is very common and popular, possibly because of the high population. The rain is pouring down. like the song “clean” by taylor swift. And the worst thing happened that i can’t login into my wechat, a Chinese online app for communicating, like the discord. So, i told my mother to help me do thing piece of shit. She took a takeout. And I was waiting.
久违的铃声响了起来，我打开门，楼下传来一阵急促的脚步。 很快，一位身穿雨服，与我年龄相当的女性出现在我面前，不高大概160左右。我猜，是一名学生，因为看的样子比较像，但具体无从考证。她的雨衣黝黑黝黑的，跟农村干农活的套鞋一个色儿，从她上楼的样子，不妨可以看出她的心里非常急。
“您好，你的外卖收到了吗”
“没有”
“那个——，”随后她消失在门前。
我随即打开手机确定一下情况，往窗户外看，发现她来时的电动车还停留在下面，判断出她应该没有走远。
May 5, 2024
Every day it’s raining. life is boring, i felt like. As I am siting in front of my computer watching fitmc’s 2b2t videos, i felt a sense of nostalgia.
June 17, 2024
I haven’t done such things for so long. This page is almost new to me. Recently, I got some inspiration of writinga small section of my novel. Below is what I have thought so far.
It all started that night when I move to the dorm. It is almost midnight if I remember correctly. As I was laying on my bed, that fellow who was on the opposite of mine said something. You really need to these animes. That’s so godame great. “dammit, he will be an otaku!” added the third person in my dorm who is notorious for smoking around this place. It is said the past is long gone. But I think it is not true about what they say, because the past claws its way out. I have recalled vaguely that summer when I first met that person.
June 30, 2024
Today something keeps stirring in me. I want to put the phrase that i excerpt from the book I read several months ago into my composition. it turns out memory is not always authentic**.** sometimes it get wrong. So i kept looking for the word and found nothing. in the end, i found myself so embarrassed. such a painfully action. BTW, one of my relatives passed away lately. I still remember the voice she made when i was young. hope she RIP.
July 30, 2024
After staying in Japan for four days, here I have came back in China, sitting in my seat in the room. Below is what I think about Japan. Japan is a amazing country. People on the street are friendly. During my stay in Japan, when I wandered in the street, I fount out something different from China that is they call some streets Avenue. Although I have heard this word long age. but when this word came into my view. It is really novel to me. And let me think… I also have a question: why do some Japanese tend to like to wear masks, especially girls.
In the first day when I arrived in Japan: after we checked in the hotel, we went to a convenient store. their food is different from where I am. yummier than China, I think. Japanese people are always decent to visitor. something like ありがとうございます kept appearing in our mind. by the way, English is helpful. I don’t know Japanese at all, without it, we would never know what will go on.
It’s a good country, worth visiting again.
September 9, 2024
Sooooo long. feels like I haven’t write diaries for years. let me introduce these things happened lately. First, after a long summer vacation, I have returned to school. The new semester has begun, and I’m adjusting to the routine of classes and studying again. It’s quite a change from the relaxed pace of summer.
these lines up here are generated by AI. maybe one day i can write these in English. that’s gonna be amazing. I am very nervous and quite unsure about my english level.
and so on, those things below also by AI.
Reflecting on my English skills, I realize they are still at a beginner level. I often struggle with expressing complex ideas and sometimes make grammatical mistakes. However, I’m determined to improve. I plan to practice more by reading English books, watching movies without subtitles, and trying to write in English every day. It’s a challenging journey, but I believe with consistent effort, I can make progress. My goal is to reach a level where I can comfortably write these diary entries in English without relying on AI assistance.