Lately, I have been tortured by the gender identity. What gender I want to choose to become is uncertain to me. I am a man physically, but I want to experience girl’s life. In this today’s world, If modern surgery could entirely transform one’s sex, I guess a great number of people would undergo this kind of surgery. The major reason of why is that being a man or a girl can lead to a completely different life, which is quite novel. So, I kept feminine characteristics in recent months, such wearing my hair long. I am kind of rebellious to my parents’ opposition on the surface, but inwardly I just want to be a girl.