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Hi Maggots. So, this will just be kind of a personal off-the-cuff video here. No real plan or topic, but I guess I just wanted to talk. I’m sure it’s been somewhat obvious to some of y’all, probably mostly my core fans here, that I am quite burnt out of this game. I don’t have much passion for it anymore. I have already tried taking a break for a while from the game and just from content creation. Like, I haven’t really made made a video in about a week, which is a long time for me. And
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every day that passes, every time I wake up in the morning, I’m just thinking, “Okay, what can I or shall I make today?” And you know, lately it’s just been I don’t know, I don’t care, I don’t want to. These feelings are of course most prominent when there’s not a new character because when there’s a new character, I have my little routine of videos I do and that that’s pretty cool. Even for me as the creator, it feels incredibly repetitive, so I can’t
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imagine like it doesn’t feel that way for everyone else. I have been thinking a lot about this, if there’s some way I can just change up the content to make it fresh for myself and the audience. I was thinking maybe, you know, less frequent, higher effort, bigger videos because most, if not all of the content creators I really respect, you know, that’s kind of their format. They don’t release videos often, but when they do, you know, they’re a banger. And of course that’s not to say,
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you know, a video can’t be good if it only takes a couple days to make or whatever, but at least how I’m currently doing things, it is definitely more of, you know, just a job than anything else. Somewhere along the way I just lost the passion and I cannot get it back. It’s something I’ve struggled with on and off since I started YouTube really. I usually don’t want to like unload my problems onto my my viewers. It’s not their job to solve this. I guess while we’re on the subject of community and
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whatnot, another thing that’s been on my mind. I think I mentioned this at one point or another, but I almost never read comments anymore, which is something I used to do quite a lot of, even when, you know, I was bigger than I am now, even when I was smaller. Around the time I stopped reading comments, it felt like, you know, no matter what I did, no matter how hard I tried to not get something wrong, there’s always something. There’s always something. There’s always something wrong. And, you
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know, it’s okay that people point it out. It It’s okay that I get criticism. That’s fine, but I just feel like people go about it not the most productive way possible.
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I am and always have been a one-man channel. I do have friends that are really into Genshin, and they probably could help me, but it’s like I don’t want to use them in that way, and I’m definitely not currently at a point where I can hire like a research team. You know what I mean? So, I do do my own research. Uh
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sometimes, you know, a a a source can get so something wrong, and I was lazy in that moment and didn’t fact-check it myself and posted the video, and that’s happened several times. Some were, you know, a slightly bigger deal than others. There was one thing recently that Cap told me about, and this was after I posted like my last video, God mode Odette, I believe. And he was like, “Dude, you know, you should press Sandrone’s E after the last charged attack.” And I’m like, “Dude, tell me
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that now?” And he was like, “Well, the comments have been telling you that since day one.” And I just told him, “Yeah, I don’t read comments anymore.” I am somewhat curious to see what kind of impact this would have, cuz if people have really been spamming my my comments [music] since I was showcasing Sandrone, that sounds like a pretty big deal. But how big of a difference is it really? Also, at least while I was making those videos, the main source I’m using now,
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which is Prydwen, recently added Genshin, which is hype, cuz they had like every other gacha besides Genshin. So, I use them a decent amount these days. But if I’m honest, I mostly do the research after making the video, not before it, cuz I don’t want to base my entire video on reading a guide. You know what I mean? My typical process is just making the video with my own, you know, thoughts and knowledge, and then basically checking my work, make sure there’s nothing huge I misunderstand.
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And I guess my my point is on Prydwen, at least last I checked, Sandrone’s rotation does not include an E at the end. It might be slightly more optimal. I don’t know. It’s just these are the kind of things that I get railed over. And you know, after a while it gets really depressing and really exhausting that no no matter how hard you try, no no matter what you do, there will always be something. There will always be something wrong, no matter what. There will always be something someone doesn’t
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like. Even if it’s not like objectively wrong information, maybe the way I edited that video in in particular someone would have a problem with. Almost certainly my favorite creator on the platform is Summoning Salt. >> [music] >> And he posted a video on his alt channel called “Three Lessons I Learned From [music] Being a Full-Time YouTuber”, I believe it was called. There is one point I really need to remind myself of often, and that is you can’t please everyone. I know I get a good amount of
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positive comments as well, but >> [music] >> unfortunately our stupid our stupid monkey brains want to focus on the negative stuff uh way [music] more. So, when you get like a bad comment, it it sticks with you more than 100 good comments. It’s just how it works, and it’s unfortunate, but basic psychology, I guess. And even though I’ve been doing YouTube for like 10 years now, I I I I’m still too soft for the internet. I just am. I mean, getting into a random argument with like a stranger online on
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Reddit or whatever, that’s fine. I don’t care about that at all. Having the things you create, even though it’s, you know, pretty mid Genshin videos, it still hurts. You took something and you made something from it. You created something, and there’s always going to be some kind of problem with with with it. I don’t expect to, you know, for anything to ever be perfect, but it’s like I still do leave a little piece of me in every video, and in a way it’s kind of vulnerable to press that upload
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button. Be like, “Here. Here’s what what what I made.” And then inevitably some videos are hated by everyone, and you know, some videos are only hated by a few people. They’re still hated, and it still kind of hurts sometimes, you know, especially when it happens more and more often. It’s really gotten to the point where I’ve removed myself as far away as possible from the community, just because it’s not good for my sanity, my mental health, I guess. Again, just too
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soft. To be honest, I wouldn’t even know if or when I would be in some drama. Like if I had some kind of weird scandal at one point, I would be none the wiser, which feels kind of weird. I also don’t think I do anything that would warrant that. Maybe just, you know, getting things wrong in videos or whatever, not being as thorough as I could be, whatever, but I’m just generally a pretty chill guy. I do kind of miss reading constructive criticism and and feedback and you know, maybe even some
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good comments here and there, like, you know, “Hey, this was you did a good job.” or whatever. I also am aware it’s just pixels on a screen, you know, literally. But words have meaning. Words can hurt. Not necessarily because the person that said them is some kind of powerful being, but because your lived experience is what gives words power. And you know, when bad people know which words hurt you, they’re going to use them just because people are like that. Some people are kind of kind of bad people, I guess. I
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don’t know. Like a yo mama joke, for example, is harmless in most contexts, but if someone’s mom just died, you know, a yo mama joke would probably hurt pretty bad. And of course, these so-called bad people I’m talking about aren’t the ones doing the yo mama joke, but they’re the ones doing the yo mama joke having known beforehand that this person’s mom just died. That’s what it kind of feels like to a lesser extent. Like, um I’m sure most people can gather from this that I do have a problem with, you
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know, harsh criticism and uh you know, like just people calling me stupid cuz I got something wrong. It’s like, you know, okay. And while it may be less obvious, I do take pride in my work even though the passion isn’t there yet. I do still, you you know, watch through my video like three or four full times while I’m editing trying to spot things I think aren’t super important, uh especially recently. I’m hyper focused on, you know, trying to tidy up my videos, the pacing at least a bit. At
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the end of the day, I still do take pride in the final product and what I made. And I will admit there are times, you know, I get to the end of the video, I’m done editing, I’m ready to ship it, and I’m not that happy with it. I feel like it’s mostly just due to the raw idea, but there’s nothing I can really do anymore at that point. So, of course, when I get comments telling me that, you know, this video wasn’t good and you don’t care or whatever, that mostly hurts cuz deep down I agree and I know
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and I am self-critical quite a lot, quite a lot. But hearing it come from someone that’s not me just makes it real, you know? But yeah, that’s pretty much the community side of things. I’m not happy with how that is at all currently. I’m not sure there’s anything I can do to control this cuz it’s also really hard to convey and get get across what I’m talking about cuz like again, I have no problem people correcting things in the video. Just do it in a way that’s not being an I guess.
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That would be appreciated. Try to remember I’m also a normal ass human dude here, not some big company or institution. Like, I’m just dude playing the game. So, I don’t think it would hurt to just be a little little little nicer. Be nicer to me. That never works on the internet, does it? >> [laughter] >> People aren’t going to be nice to you cuz cuz you asked them to. I don’t really even expect that. Mostly just want to give get this off my chest cuz it’s been bothering me for a while and
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honestly talking just talking about it helps me. But okay, community stuff done. I want to have an honest open conversation also about Genshin itself. The game I’ve been spamming on my channel for the last 6 years basically. However long it’s been, it is by far the longest running series I’ve ever had. Like, and it’s really gotten to the point where I don’t even know what this game is anymore. Cuz for me, unless I’m making a video, most days I spend 5 minutes logging in, make some
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condensed resin, or spend condensed resin on artifacts, talk to Katherine, and then log off. Essentially waiting for the next character to summon for and make my little series of videos. That’s how it’s kind of been for I would say at least the last year or two. I don’t really even play the game unless I have to for a video. And yet within the last couple of months, I’ve beaten and 100% like four different games. So, I do [music] enjoy gaming. I just don’t really enjoy Genshin anymore. It leaves
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me at a bit of a tough spot because, you know, Genshin is basically my whole channel. It would be a little scary to just up and, you know, leave it from one second to the other. My plan was to at least wait until Snezhnaya drops, see what’s going on with Snezhnaya, and then decide then. I honestly can’t even give like a fair review of Snezhnaya cuz again, I haven’t even played it that much. But at least from what I have played, it just feels like another another patch, another big patch like a
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point oh patch, but, you know, it was nothing game-changing or it didn’t make the game any more fun for me specifically. Also, I guess I’ll just randomly mention this, but, you know, I was also playing NTE for a while on my channel. Some months, I think I even posted more NTE than Genshin. So, it was kind of a series. It was kind of a series. I quit NTE though. I just don’t play it anymore. From one day to the next, I was just like, this is another chore simulator. And, you know, if I’m going to if I’m going to
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play a chore simulator, I have Genshin and that’s enough. And yes, I know it’s not really fair to boil these games down into chore simulators. They do have a lot of beautiful content, very very deep lore if you want to get into it. How I play them though most days is logging in, making condensed, spinning resin, logging off. And as soon as NTE just turned into that as well, you know, when I’ve done everything else I wanted to and I was just logging in to do the stuff to keep my account
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up-to-date in a way, I was like, what am I doing? For Genshin, the answer was always I’m waiting for the next character. But only for the sake of making videos. And that’s why content creation in general just hasn’t been that fun lately. And I’ve really been thinking about a lot if there’s a, you know, some other path I could consider going down or should, but nothing feels so appropriate for a series than like a gotcha. And it’s probably just because I’ve, you know, this is just what I’ve
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been doing. You know, I I can think of some pretty interesting one-off videos, but if I’m going to actually take my channel in a different direction uh with a different game or without a different game, I don’t even know yet. Maybe I can just mix up how we make Genshin videos. That could also work. Also, a part of me doesn’t want to just like pick up a different game and just play that for the next 10 years also cuz, you know, there is a benefit to being known for one game or one thing.
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Uh it’s called being in a niche and, you know, the algorithm kind of likes that when you’re in a neat little box. But on the other hand, you end up like me where you’re either forced to play the same game forever or take a massive massive hit, even bigger than I’ve already suffered, I suppose, uh when you’re doing doing something else. I do look back to uh some of the Elden Ring stuff I made back in the day and it obviously didn’t do as well as my peak Genshin content, but also didn’t do
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horribly either, at least some of the videos. The ones more focused on, you know, helping others, uh at least how I do that, and sharing information and packaging it in a way where I think it’s easy to follow along. And I think that is my strong suit, not necessarily guides, but packaging information in a way that is easy to understand. I I hope at least. You know, don’t tell Bones this, but uh she’s not really that much of a gamer, so when she does try and pick up a game and, [music]
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you know, I have to really be patient and take my time explaining things. And I think through things like that, I I I’ve gotten somewhat adequate of explaining maybe things that are complex to some people in a more natural, easier way. And I know there are a lot of epic gamers out there rolling their eyes. Right I know “Dude, games aren’t complicated. They can’t be complicated. Read the tutorial.” Some people really struggle understanding certain mechanics or how things work in any given game.
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I’ve definitely been considering stuff along that path. When it comes to Genshin, I suppose that is kind of my character showcases. They’ve never really been packaged as guides or tutorials because I have also a kind of a self-confidence issue, mostly from the, you know, some fair, some unfair criticism. I do kind of purposely frame them as, you know, “Hey, we’re just raising the character here and I’m going to talk about them instead of here’s everything you need to know about XYZ
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character.” And, you know, “Don’t do this. Don’t do that.” But yeah, I don’t really know what else to talk about at the moment. For this video, I probably will actually read the comments because maybe someone has some ideas. Again, I I know it’s not y’all’s job to, you know, help me or fix this, but it is good to sometimes get outside perspectives. I’m really bad with getting into my own own head and just overthinking everything and just I have not even decided
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anything yet. I think until I do, I’m probably just going to, you know, keep plodding along, playing Genshin. It’s not that I like never enjoy the process. When a new character comes out, that is something I genuinely like look forward to and look forward to trying out and such. But, uh, in those in-between moments, like now when there’s nothing to do really, I’m just kind of lost. But all right, I’m going to stop yapping now. Just going to say bye. No no typical outro. Doesn’t feel very fitting. See
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you out there.