let me talk nonsense for a second
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Hello everyone. Um You know what’s happening right now? Just life. Like, Just life is happening. Um both good and bad. I don’t even know what’s happening, right now. But um, I know I’m supposed to be uploading a makeup tutorial, but I’m I just really, cannot get myself to finish editing it because I don’t know. I’m just I’m just, like mentally like stressed the Like I have college, exams coming up in a week. Um I’m studying for my, language school finals. Um I don’t know. There’s like a lot of things happening, and I’m just constantly working. All I do is work and I haven’t really had the, time to make a proper vlog where I would go out and um, you know, just take videos. But it’s cuz I’m just like too I’m too, exhausted. I’m too tired to go out and do so, you know? But, like yeah, just life is happening. I don’t remember having a day where I, was able to stay home and rot all night or all day and just do nothing cuz I It, makes me feel terrible. Like mentally it makes me feel terrible. I feel like a.
child if I don’t do anything productive, you know?Um so yeah, all I all I’ve been doing is work.Um There’s days where I wake up at 6:00 No, 5:00 a.m. and I pull up to work at, 6:30. And I pull like 8-hour shifts.
Here pull means “work/do”, especially when talking about a period of work.
pull an 8-hour shift = work an 8-hour shift
a) if workers in a factory, hospital etc work shifts, they work for a particular period of time during the day or night, and are then replaced by others, so that there are always people working
do/work a (10-/12-/24- etc hour) shift
Dave had to work a 12-hour shift yesterday.
I work shifts.
night/day etc shift
The thought of working night shifts put her off becoming a nurse.
early/late shift
I’m on the early shift tomorrow.
shift work/worker/working
people who do shift work
A shift system has been introduced.
b) the workers who work during one of these periods
night/day/early/late shift
before the early shift goes off duty
Like, honestly, as much as I have all of I have all these I post on all of these, platforms on social media. At the end of the day, I’m still just a, normal 19-year-old girl who’s trying to get into college. Like an art college.And she is just just a girl who’s trying to pursue, her career in art, okay? So, and the thing is I don’t even know, if I can even get into this this uh university.Um mainly because I don’t have the, confidence to or just like the guts to push myself to, try get in, you know what I mean? Like I mean I applied, but it’s it’s just, I’m just like overthinking too many things at once, you know? Like my mind, is all over the place right now. Um also I feel like people I’m a little bit, hesitant on posting this on YouTube because.
uh people nowadays get bashed on for showing their vulnerable side on the, internet.
bash:
[T] ~ sb/sthto criticize sb/sth strongly 严厉批评
Bashing politicians is normal practice in the press.
严厉批判政治人物乃是新闻界常事。
a liberal-bashing administration
打击自由主义的政府
Like you could be breathing and then, people would bash you for it, you know? But then something I’ve just kind of, stopped caring about. Um I just kind of stopped caring about how, people perceive me, you know? Um because life is too short, to even care. Um and also we’re all human we’re all human.We’re all human beings. We all have good sides. We have bad sides, okay?We make good and bad decisions. Um there’s people out there who think that, I’m the most evil person alive and they haven’t Actually, a lot of people, haven’t even met me and they think that I’m the worst person alive. Like, can I even do anything about that? No. I mean, I’ve said my points and I’ve, explained everything and I apologize and that’s like all I, can do. I can’t really do anything more than that. But like yet again, we’re all, human. Um and there’s people out there who think.
I’m a bad person even though there are people out there who has done so much, worse than me.So, life Like say you see you post something, stupid on the internet. Like for example, this video. I think this video, is kind of stupid. Um sure, like you’re going to get talked, about. Like there’s a chance you might get talked about in someone’s group chat, and like a some friend group, but like is that going to last forever? No.You’re just going to be there like their topic in their conversation for, like a few minutes and boom, it’s over. So you really should not be caring.Also, life is too short for you to care at this point.
You know, there’s just so, many things going on in life on this earth that you can’t, even like worrying about how you’re perceived is the least, of your problems right now.
: something of the lowest importance, strength, value, etc.最不重要的事物；最微小的事物；最无价值的东西
Any noise—even the (very) least—would startle her.
任何响声——即便是最（微）小的声音——都会吓着她。
— often + of
That’s the least of my worries/problems. [=I have more important worries/problems to deal with]
那是我最不担心的事情/问题。
We had many things to consider, not the least of which was the safety of our children. [=the safety of our children was very important]
我们有许多事情需要考虑，尤其是孩子们的安全问题
Like there’s just so many bigger problems out out out, here right now. Like you just just you can’t even you shouldn’t even, worry about that. So, a little bit of lore.
Back in high school, I used to be paranoid about people disliking me. I, really did not I tried my hardest to get people to like me. And so I was of, course like the biggest people pleaser in the whole entire world. But, um the thing is that backfired and that ended up making people, dislike me more because I’m constantly putting on some kind of, mask or like a different personality to try and make that person like me and I, was like performative and I wasn’t being true to myself.And of course that would make the other person feel, uncomfortable because I was being fake, you know?But what I’m trying to say is stop caring about how others perceive you. Do, what you want to do. Like you want to dye your hair, but you think, it’s too crazy, just dye it anyway. If you’re happy with it, do it. If you have, an outfit that you wanted to wear outside, but you’re too scared to, because you didn’t want to get bullied, just wear it.You know? You wanted to go out to this new shop,
but you had no one to go with, do it yourself. Like go by yourself. Like, also, nobody People do not do things alone enough.Like we need to normalize doing things on our like alone. I feel like that’s, Doing things alone is amazing. It’s so peaceful. It’s so fun. But But people, are just afraid because they’re going to get judged for being alone, being like, like a loner or something. But no. If anything, like I like to be alone, sometimes. Like I like to go out alone because I don’t have to really sit and, force myself to talk to somebody, right? Um I mean sure, like having having some, kind of presence with you like next to you is fun, but it, just gets exhausting sometimes. So, you should just like go out. Go on a walk.Touch grass. It might be be damn phone. It might It just might be that damn, phone. You know? Okay, but um, anyway, what I’m trying to say is okay, I’m sorry. I I really cannot stick to, one topic, but what I’m just trying to say is just do what you want to do.
Be happy. Uh if you’re afraid of how people will, judge you, don’t. Life is too short to care, okay?Do whatever you want. Yeah, I think I think this YouTube, channel’s turning to uh a video diary. I hope you guys don’t, mind. I I promise I’ll get back to vlogging soon, once everything calms down. Okay.Bye.
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