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Hello beautiful people of the internet. This is no longer human_77 here. Um,today we will be doing a day in the life because some people have requested it.Um, took me so long because I honestly don’t know what’s interesting about my, life. I don’t really do much besides bedrock and feed my cat and take care of, her, her little servant. And other than that, I doom scroll. I I watch some, shows. I I make some food for myself like once a day to not starve. And, that’s usually pretty much it. Hello. What are you doing? Come here.I know you want to bite the wire. Come here. I said come here.Anyways, right now it’s 3:30. I woke up like 30 minutes ago and I was just doom, scrolling like on Tik Tok. One creator that I really like is like, this one Chinese girl, her name’s like and she posts on like Tik Tok and like, Shiau and she’s like just so funny. I just love her like her video. I’ve been, watching this show called Culinary Awards on Netflix. It’s so it’s so.
interesting. But the first season was definitely better. But like I don’t, know. I like watching people cook and like it’s so interesting and I wish I, knew how to cook but I can’t cook. I should get up and like take a shower cuz, my hair is kind of greasy as hell. And also for some reason I have cat, allergies. I don’t know why. I’ve never had allergies of any sort in the past.And like my leg has been so itchy throughout the night. I think I started, like scratching on it to the point that it’s like bleeding. Like it hurts. It, just hurts, bro. Like this sucks.Hair. I lost so much hair because I bleached, this so many freaking times only for me to go back to black.That’s crazy. I just took out my cat’s litter,so I’m going to go shower now. So, let’s do skin care. I use this new Peach 77, Nioinomide Conditioning Milk. Honestly, I don’t really know what it does, but it, smells good. And um yeah, it’s pretty. This helps, >> [snorts] >> um pigmentation, like hyperpigmentation,
which I have a lot of, but you can’t really see from like here. If I if I do, a closeup, you’ll see it. But um from here, like you can’t really see it. This, is like a moisturizer. I usually use the Sarave moisturizer, [snorts] the blue, one. That’s it for skin care. I don’t I don’t, do too much because if you do too much and you don’t know what you’re using,that might make your skin are reactive to ingredients and stuff. It’s kind of, funny cuz like back in the day, like middle school, I used the Aztec clay, mask, which is like this very drying, very, very acidic mask. And I thought it, would like strip away all my fungal acne and all my scars. I don’t know why I, thought that because it just felt really drying on the skin. So, I was like,“Yeah, that’s that’s going to make my skin better.” But no,it did not. But it made my skin more resilient to stronger products, which I, don’t know if that’s a good or bad thing, but it made my skin really.
sensitive. So, no. Also, I got ice cream. It’s peach. It’s so good, guys.If you guys ever see this in your supermarkets, buy it. Cuz genuinely,this is like this is not overhyped. This is genuinely the best thing ever.Okay. Why can’t I remove this lid?It’s nice cuz it has a little thing to catch the ice cream if it falls.>> Let’s make some food.This is what I will be making. Parata and it’s really good. And you can just, dump it in. You don’t need to oil the pan or anything. It’ll just rise on its, own. And just let it wait, like this. You just wait until it starts to look like bread. Turn on the light so, you guys can see what is actually happening.Yes. You just you just keep flipping it over. It’s like similar to like Chinese, like scallion scallion pancake, but it’s not. It’s just like onion. And I think, this tastes so much better. It would be nice if I had like curry or something,but I don’t. And I don’t know how to make curry. So, we just eat bread. This.
This is like the perfect crust. Like, this is perfect. But I like it a little, more crispy. So, like low key, I like it a little burnt. Yeah. I’m going to put, the on my plate and then make the other one. There’s only five in a pack,but um low key, I want more. I should buy more.I’m looking so hungry. I’m going just eat some right now.I just burned my lip. Holy, My second one is kind of really burnt, but you know what? I like that. So,we’re good. Also, guys, I lowkey shaved off this part of my eyebrow. It’s, supposed to be longer, but oh well. I love making my cat jealous, with food. She just stares at me while I eat.Like, what is this? Girl, if you eat this, you’re going to, get indigestion and you might vomit because that has garlic.So, no.I’m lowkey getting like food coma, so I’m just going to lay down and watch, YouTube. This is what I do. And I chill with my, cat and I have my laptop. This is so sad, bro. Like documenting, how I actually spend my days. I open up Netflix or YouTube or whatever.
the hell and then I have my actual phone here. It’s almost 5. Um,scroll while I also watch shows. Yeah.Yeah. And then my cat is just here chilling with me.Oh my god. [snorts] Gallon of water just did a, backflip and then landed upright. Bro, where’s the cap?Where’s the cap? Oh, it’s here,bro. Okay. What I do is like, I have my little canned food for my cat and like you know this thing always, stays upright. Oh, wait. Somehow it just like closed. Okay. But usually what I do, is I put a gallon of water on top of it so it crushes the the lid so it like, stays stays closed so I could feed my cat, again. But that was so dumb. That scared me. Like all of a sudden it just fell, and I was like what the is so cold in my room? I don’t know why my room is, the coldest out of every single other room. So that’s why I stay in bed a lot, because it’s just warmer that way. I wrap myself in a burrito most of the, time. I also want to mention that a lot of people have been like commenting on.
my old older videos and they said like I don’t even know what I’m trying to say.I know in like a video like this, I’m trying to be more upbeat and like, normal, but most of the days I just spend, not talking to anyone. Like except my cat. Like I’m like, “Hey, you want to, eat?” or anything or she’s being weird. I just laugh at her. Um,most of the time whenever I’m doing any tasks, like cleaning her litter, taking a shower, watching videos, eating, playing, with my cat, it’s all in silence. So, like me like talking to you guys, while I’m doing what I normally do in a day in the life, it’s kind of weird to, me. I feel like these days I just don’t really have any interests or any, any will to do a lot of things. Like games don’t really interest me, anymore. It’s not really fun to play video games. I mean, if I play video, games, it’s just like TFT on my phone. I don’t even feel like sitting up. I mean,I watch videos and stuff, but it’s literally just cheap dopamine and all.
that The best solution is to actually go outside. But it’s so cold, that I I just don’t, cuz I don’t like cold weather at all. On a very very stupid note, um I got Gwen, from the TFT banner. I spent 60 bucks trying to roll for her and then I, actually got her. That’s kind of crazy to me, not going to lie.Okay, I’m gonna play TFT, guys. Byebye. Or see you see you in a bit.[snorts] Low key, I feel like fainting right now. Okay.Okay, let’s go eat some food. I just ordered takeout for me and my mom. Um,she’s usually never home this early. She’s always home at like 9:00 and, stuff, so she’s home early today. Get soul to go.Where you running, girl? Come here. I can’t keep up.Please let me hug you. Sol,[laughter] I have like grandpa knees. It is lowkey, kind of embarrassing how walking up and down the stairs and chasing Sola makes, me kind of winded like bro. I got her down.>> Sushi.>> Yes. Sushi.>> They have mints too. Okay.Um, this is this is what it looks like. And I kind of up the little.
presentation, but this is soy sauce.Yeah. This one’s the shrimp tempura maki.>> I don’t know. You’re Brooklyn. So funny to me that, adults are becoming like iPad kids with Tik Tok.Her too [snorts] >> vlog so good.It’s a little funny that I’m talking to you guys more than her. She’s just, watching Tik Toks, bro. [snorts] Adults always say like, “Oh,it’s the damn phone.” And then the adults be like, doing the same She just ignoring me.I saved the best one for last. This one’s the seared salmon one.Sears salmon.>> Solo was crying. BABY, BABY.Oh my god, she just wants to go and play. Let’s, take a solo break. Come on. Come on, baby. Let’s play. Let’s go to the bed, and play. I’ll carry you.No, baby.Okay.She’s already growing so fast. Like, I feel like she was so tiny. like just, three weeks ago, but now she’s like growing so much bigger.She eating lots. She got a soup belly.It’s so cold. I feel like I feel like a burrito.But the last week has been pretty rough. I’ve been pretty actively suicidal,
and [snorts] that’s not good. I also accidentally ghosted my therapist, and they said they would drop me if that would continue to happen reasonably. So,like with therapy and stuff, you have to like, [snorts] you don’t vibe with every single therapist you meet. And that’s, the annoying part because then you have to keep looking for new ones and then it, just feels like you [snorts] won’t ever find some, person that you feel most comfortable with. So, yeah, it just makes the whole, like [snorts] Hi, Solo. It just makes the process of, trying to get help really hard.Why are you sniffing me? [snorts] I think during my teenage years, I really, didn’t think I would live past 17. [snorts] So then, like, now that I’m, here, it’s like, whoa, what do I do now? Now I have to like rush to try to get my, life back together somehow. But like, I’m still so mentally ill.It’s like, what the hell? What do I do? How am I supposed to get better if for, the last decade I haven’t been in a mentally good place? In the past, I.
was like highly functional, but now I’m just, I’m just a blob. I’m just a mess. Just a literal, bed. [clears throat] Just a literal bedrocker.I’ll get my life together. I I I I will try, but right now it’s, kind of like you have to take it day by day.And there’s a lot of guilt that also comes, with that and a lot of shame because when you’re doing like living like the, way that I am, you feel a lot of shame because it’s like, well, why can’t I, just get my together? Why can’t I just do this? Why can’t I just do that?And then you shame yourself into like it’s like this shame cycle, and a lot of rumination and you just feel so guilty for why you’re the way, that you are now. But then because you’re so caught up in your guilt and, shame. You feel like paralyzed. You’re like in a freeze state that you can’t, actually go out of your way to do things because of the amount of shame that you, feel. And then you feel like even if I try, it wouldn’t amount to much of, anything. Yeah.Oh, hey SA.
I love how she always ignores me and is doing,“Hey, you just almost broke my lamp.”, And then she runs. She runs. She knows she did something wrong.whatever. Um, earlier when I was scrolling on, TikTok, I was just looking at some of my old like, music covers and like some songs that I would like to sing but also feel scared, to try to attempt because I’m a perfectionist and if it doesn’t turn out, the way that I want it to sound, I will never post it ever or, just feel bad because I don’t have the skills to make sound, good. A large part of that is also just like, mixing. I don’t really know how to do that But anyways, I want to learn,but then I’m like, “Oh, I’m so lazy. I don’t know where to start. I don’t know, how to start.” Then just a loop. But, we’ll see. If I find a new hobby, definitely I will, show you guys. I will take you guys along the journey, with me right now. >> 5 hours later,>> currently 4:30 and I know I’m in a burrito state, but I literally had a.
screaming head off argument type of triggering, episode with the cheating ex on the phone. I broke a plate. I scared Sola by, accident. Scared myself low key.Try to take some more pills and started angrily using my knife against, my um whatever you call that. The headboard of your bed. [sighs], So tired of this It’s like second nature to me to act out of anger and, impulse and like screaming my head off and just, it’s just really bad. It’s really really really bad. And I screamed so loud. I, was yelling so loud and I woke my mom up and she started yelling at me and then, that just like made everything so much worse.Like everything I feel during the split is so bad. It’s so much.And sometimes I just wish like I could be tranquilized or something cuz I hate, feeling like this.I’m not dumb and I know it’s not a good thing and I know I need to get help and, I know I need to manage these behaviors.Genuinely, I just feel like I’m going to explode.
throwing things. Oh yeah, I also threw my phone really hard. Last time I broke, my phone after two like two times of throwing it on the floor. It broke, completely and died, but I cracked my phone protector screen this time.>> [sighs] >> Feel bad for Sola.She has to witness me like this.Sola. Hey, baby. I was just talking about you.Hey. Hello. She just came to see me. I was just talking about you.Hey, did you just poop girl? You stink.That stinks. Ew.Okay, I guess she’ll say good night. Good night vlog. Say good night. Say say, bye-bye. Peace out, people on the internet. Sol, signing off. Yeah. Um, yeah. Let’s just call it a, night. This is This is a It’s a show. Say bye, Sola.Say bye. You smell like poo poo. Oh my god, you smell so bad. Did you just poop?
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