forcing myself to go outside again

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Hello beautiful people of the internet.No longer human here.Today we are going to a hair salon.A hair stylist, messaged me on Instagram and asked if I can do their makeup for their model.So,I’m excited cuz both of them are my mutuals, and I’m pretty sure this girl asked me to do their makeup like a few years ago.I don’t know.We just never coordinated anything cuz I used to like do makeup.Well, I still do makeup,but I used to do some on my friends and mutuals, and I I used to want to become a makeup artist.Gave up on that because I’m in New York.I’m not like in Korea or like Japan, where they have special shops for that stuff.So, you have like constant customers coming here.Like if I do do that kind of stuff, it would be very much freelance,but um I don’t know.This is Today is just We’re just side questing.And um I’m pretty sure it’s somewhere around here.I took the bus to get here.I am running like 10 minutes late, but they’re doing a haircut first.

I’m just doing the makeup like probably an hour afterwards anyway,so it don’t really matter that much, but yeah.I’m just going to record this for the vlog.I mean it it’s like a interesting side quest.Let’s see how it goes.Also, what the hell is that?That looks funny.Um I’m not Hold on.I’m not sure where it is.I need to take out my phone cuz I’m carrying my little makeup thingy mabob,my phone.Okay.Uh over we Okay, it is in this fancy ass building.Okay, let’s go.This is pretty cute.This is the fit.Um you can’t really see the whole fit, but All right,let’s go.Fancy ass.After the liquor store.Okay.Thank you.Okay.He said it’s after the liquor store.Money.I’m at the right place now.Where are we going?Okay, stairs.Okay, I hope I don’t die.I hope I don’t trip and die.Oh, do I knock?Hello.Hello.Yes.Yeah, yeah,yeah, yeah,yeah.That’s cool.Kind of, yeah.I’m filming a little vlog.>> Oh, are you?>> Yes.Too late.Not even going to lie, it was really quiet at first.

Later I find out that we’re all introverts, so that explains it a lot.I was sitting there for like, 30 minutes just doom scrolling, while he was cutting hair.I didn’t want to say anything to vlog cuz I was like,I feel weird talking to vlog when there’s people there,especially people that I don’t really know.So then I just kept pointing at things and then I was like,maybe I’ll do a voiceover.That’s exactly what I’m doing right now.And this is like my little makeup, kit for when I like did like, makeup for other people,so yeah.So, what is your name?>> Oh, I’m Alvin.>> You’re Alvin.>> I’m the New York City, you know,baddie maker hair stylist.>> He is.What’s your name?>> I’m Che.I’m going to get transformed today.>> Oh, what?>> Let’s go.>> Yeah, what are we turning her into?>> We are turning her into a baddie, but we’re doing Dolly makeup.Like, when you messaged me you were like,I just called >> Yo, baddies come in >> [laughter] >> Yo,baddies come in different forms.>> True.

I was like, what kind of makeup inspo do you want?You’re like, I don’t know,man.>> Yo, you’re the expert.You’re the expert Che.You’re [laughter] the expertise here.It’s all It’s up to you.It’s up to you.>> I was like, I’ll just ask her instead.>> [laughter] >> I doom scroll Pinterest for like >> Oh, facts.>> half an hour.>> Good facts.Nice.Nice.>> We got the inspo.Actually, let me show them the line.>> Landscape portrait.>> Landscape.>> Landscape.>> Landscape portrait.>> Landscape.>> Oh, this is the inspo.>> Wow.>> The >> Wow, so >> [laughter] >> You got THE STREAMER VOICE.IT’S OKAY.It’s really chill here.>> Yo, wow,so dolly.>> We’re We’re really chill, right?>> That’s how I talk.That’s just how I talk.Yo, that’s just how I talk.>> You got the streamer accent.>> Oh, we might be online a little bit.>> You got it in?>> Yes.>> Okay, okay.[snorts] We can start.And then I got my little little setup here.Some of my makeup.>> Did you prepare for this?Were you prepared?

No, like I used to do people’s makeup for fun.And like also like when I went to >> Yeah, no doxxing.No doxxing.No doxxing.>> No doxxing.It’s like volunteered for some like fashion shows and just did people’s makeup.I like doing it.>> And they didn’t pay you?>> No.>> Yeah, I know.I did that before also.>> Yeah.>> [laughter] >> It is what it is.It is what it is.>> Let me know if you need me to hold a [ __ ] lipstick or something.I’ll I’ll lay I’ll lay hold I’ll hold it.>> chill.It’s all good.>> Behold, this is my attempt at making small talk.>> But you know Anna, right?>> Yeah, but we’ve only only messaged on Instagram.>> Oh, I see.Yes.I feel a little too light, but It’s okay.I won’t wash myself in the water.Look straight ahead.>> Not going to lie, guys.I was locked the [ __ ] in.I was lowkey too meticulous, about the details that lowkey took way too freaking long to do the makeup.I think like two to three hours.It should not have been that long, but like I don’t know.

I was like lowkey failing at like putting the eyelid tape on her,which comes later on, but I didn’t really include it in the footage.Also, I didn’t realize at the time,but I didn’t take any before and after photos, which I should have.Ay ya.>> Yo, I know April sound.That’s the thing under the eye.That’s the thing under the eye.I know ball.Yo, I know ball.>> [laughter] >> Let’s go.>> Let’s go.>> Vlogging.>> Yo, who’s that?Yo, who’s that?>> Vlogging.>> Yo, who’s that?>> Okay, vlog.This is how it’s going.The hair is like Is it almost done?>> Yeah.>> Oh my god.She’s so pretty.>> So, does she look different?Does she look different?>> Well, I look transformed.>> Does she look transformed?>> Transformed?>> a noticeable Is this a noticeable transformation?>> The master is at work.>> I thought you were the master.>> Well, you’re the hair stylist master.>> Yo, you got a PhD in makeupology.>> Makeupology.>> Makeupology.>> Cosmetology.

Alvin is just like perfecting and styling Gia’s hair for like videos,so he can post it on TikTok and Instagram.Then we’re out.So, we are going to K-town,Korean place, to eat.I have my big ass makeup bag right there.Yeah, I keep Every time I come here,I vlog.I don’t know why.This is the vlog spot.>> Yes.>> Oh, thank you.Thank you.Thank you.How that one look bigger?>> I like [ __ ] Why do I have to >> We got some mega ones.>> Yeah.>> I think it’s just like more broth.>> That’s >> Try it.I’ve never gotten the mega one before.I always get the regular one when I come here.Thank you.Level [music] two spicy.Kid you not, we literally all ate in complete silence.And then the only person that talked after, I was like,“Oh, it’s good,isn’t it?” But you know the food good when the whole group goes nonverbal.But yeah, I basically scarfed the whole entire ramen down like Kirby.Hey guys.Um so, I just departed from the group.We got Koku Ramen, and we just all eat in silence because we’re all introverts.

and then it was like non-verbal the whole entire time.It was a little funny to me but like everyone was just chowing down,you know what I mean?I am very full but I will get HT before I go.It’s funny cuz I think there was like a serial pooper, like earlier this year and like, I don’t know.They kept pooping at HT and like some other boba shops like Meestrey.I don’t know why I said that like a white person.Mees-, Meestrey.Meeshit.Some guy just came up to me and said Ohio and I’m like, “Bruh.” Bruh,I ain’t even Japanese, bro.Yeah,my my makeup bag is pretty heavy, so I’m having like a hard time, trying to carry it while, like vlogging.It is so hectic.It makes me want to die.Should I even get HT?Is it even worth it?Okay, maybe it’s not worth it.I lied.Let’s go home.I just want to go home.Okay chat, change of plans.We are going to go to Washington Square Park [music] to say hi to a mutual.We’ve been mutuals for a little bit >> [music] >> and then I just.

saw their story that they’re selling like vinyls there.So I also feel like I haven’t done enough for this vlog.So you know what?Let’s Let’s go.>> [music] >> And someone’s also playing an instrument.But that’s kind of cool.Let me actually figure out how to get there.It just sucks cuz I’m carrying this heavy-ass makeup bag.I should have like took out a lot of the makeup cuz I did not need all that.I did [music] not need all that.Washington Square Park.Okay, we could the train.Okay, comes in 1 minute.Let’s go.Bro, I’m going to get muscles from today’s workout.Low-key scared for later cuz, I don’t know cuz the what’s it called the games are playing,the NBA.Yeah.Wait, I should have taken that.Wait, what Why am I so stupid?Okay, I got two straps on.One strap, two straps.Let’s go.Hope I don’t die.Trip and die.Um rush hour.[ __ ] my life.>> Stand clear of the closing doors, please.>> Bro, I [ __ ] up.I I missed my stop.I didn’t know I skipped the stop, so then I I just skipped it.

Oh [ __ ] I accidentally called my friend.Bro, I’m like light-headed.I don’t know why.RIP.Now I go down, back up town.Hey, yeah.What am I doing, bro?Okay, we are making our way there.Finally.Um your boy is breaking a sweat, not going to lie.That’s guard.So heavy.I literally I genuinely need a workout cuz like what do you mean?This makeup bag is making me like die.My traps are like sore.But today’s a good day.Um I’m trying to push myself to socialize more, so let’s [snorts] do it.I’m a little scared, but you know,just just brave through it, you know?I keep telling myself like even though I’m so [ __ ] anxious all the time,especially when it comes to like social [ __ ] I’m like,you just got to pull through.You just exposure therapy, you know?Exposure reduces anxiety is what they supposedly say.But every time I upload a YouTube video,I feel like I’m going to like [ __ ] myself.It’s okay.It’s okay.I’m just I’m just yapping.I’m just complaining.I do not know where they are at the park.

It’s probably at the center, so I’ll just stop by,say hi, loiter a little bit.My high school friend is out and about today,but I don’t know how long she’ll be out for.I low key want to see her.So,I might just like wait until like she’s done hanging out with her school friend.We’ll see.Let’s see if I can find my mutual.Oh, hi.>> We’re doing better the other day when we were more in the center.>> Ah, yeah.I feel like y’all like the center would be like better.>> Yeah, but it’s like too sunny.It’s kind of like ruined the records,so we’re going to wait till it gets a bit darker.>> I chatted with my mutual Julie brief.[music] We just had some small talk, and then I was on my way to go.Not going to lie, I don’t know how to like extend the conversation,so then I don’t want to make it awkward.So, I’m like,yeah, I’m just going to go now.I don’t know.Someone’s getting like arrested.Low key can’t tell what’s happening.I feel like I’m so nosy right now.I can’t tell what he did.I can’t really hear.

I’m trying to eavesdrop, but like I don’t know.I’m just sitting here and listening to this guy [music] sing,and then I meet up with my high school friend.>> [music] >> The pigeons are low key like the pigeons here.>> I don’t know.I’m just like observing everything.#mindfulness >> dbt skill >> I love looking at the cute dogs that walk by.They’re so cute.Hello.Is he doing a mating call?What is going on?He looks like he’s doing a mating call.This is so cute.And then hello.It’s me for real.And you all have to yo, chat.Guess who it is.It’s me again.It’s Eileen’s archive, the one from the live stream.So bright.I am glowing a little bit.>> You’re glowing.You’re like You’re like an angel.>> I know.Angel this is.Yeah, we’re going to do a tarot card reading.There’s like a guy There’s like this old man there and I was like, should I do it or not?Yeah, I’m going to do it.Let’s go.Hi.Do you take Venmo?>> No, I don’t take Venmo.Look at You’re outfit is just so elegant.>> Thank you.Thank you.

Yeah, I don’t take Venmo.I’m I’m late.>> Oh, [ __ ] >> But I don’t turn anybody down,but I take cash or Venmo.>> Uh Oh, I Oh,sorry.It’s okay.>> I’m here all the time.>> Yeah, yeah,yeah.>> Uh when it’s hot, I’m in this corner,but usually in the center, but it’s supposed to get really hot.>> Yeah.>> I’ll see you soon.>> All right.I’ll see you one day.>> I love Where are you going with that?>> Um we’re just walking around.>> Oh, I thought you were going to a special place.>> No, no, no.It’s not a special thing.Thank you.>> Bye-bye.>> Bye-bye.Have a good day.No tarot card.>> No No fortune read today.Maybe next time.Maybe it’s like saving my life right now.Maybe I shouldn’t know my future.>> Yes.We’re going to cafe now.>> Where are we going?>> Cafe two by two.>> Two by two?>> Two by two.>> What are we eating there?>> Tiramisu.>> Okay, let’s go.>> And then like >> Tiramisu >> like >> Tiramisu >> Drink something.>> Oh, this is becoming my vlog now.>> Yes.>> I’m taking over.>> Yes.

Actually, it’s cuz Han’s carrying something really heavy.But I’m going to film you.Go up the stairs.So, we’re going to scan your QR code.>> I’m so thirsty.>> I’m going to die.>> We’re like eavesdropping on the person next to us.>> Really?Did you try this one before?>> Mhm.>> They said, is it a green flag or a red flag if the person, that you’re seeing says you look better with makeup.You say it’s a red flag.>> Yeah, even if it’s the truth,I feel like it’s not something you should say.>> I agree.>> it apparently.>> I agree.I agree.I haven’t tried this yet.I don’t remember.Right.Try my gorgonzola.I don’t think drink.This one’s way better.Thank you.How would you feel if the guy that you’re seeing ghosted you for two days?>> Like I’m already dating him.>> I’m talking.Talking to him.>> Like I would just assume that he has like too big of a roster.>> Oh, so I text back.>> I got like sidelined or something.I got put on the bench.>> Wow.What if the guy you like says he’s a [ __ ] >> I mean,

he’s just like self-reporting, you know?>> [laughter] >> If you keep talking, Chad’s going to piece it together.>> I’ll shut up.>> I’m just asking.I’m throwing questions at you.What if the guy you like draws a picture of himself?>> Well, I already told you it’s egg.Like imagine like this guy, like he likes himself so much.He has a photo of himself open on his phone,and then he’s just like drawing himself for hours on end.I mean, it’s good to love yourself,but maybe it’s a little excessive.>> I feel like my answers are going to make me look like a manipulator.>> You know what?I’m in my nonchalant era.I am so nonchalant.Right?>> I don’t know about that.>> I am.>> I think I’m more of a nonchalant than you are then now.>> Okay, obviously.>> [laughter] >> What do you mean obviously?>> Cuz I’m still hot.>> I’m a simp for you, though.I always come running whenever you call.I always call whenever you want to call.I’m better than all of the guys that you like.>> True.

I used to tell Honesty back in high school.I told them never date a guy who isn’t at least better than me.>> And I did the exact opposite of that.>> Yeah.>> Okay, but to be fair,he acted like my I mean, he just acted like like >> Yeah,I know what you mean.Like A lot of guys think >> Like they fake it.>> fake.>> They fake their whole personalities, and then they destroy you.>> That’s the hard part.What are your red flags in a guy?>> My red flags in a guy?A narcissist, a liar.That’s kind of it.>> The bar is low, guys.>> The bar is really low.The bar is in hell.Okay, I think another red flag is when a guy is a pick-me guy.He’s like, “Oh,I’m not like other girls.” I met a lot of dudes like that.It’s like, “Oh,yeah.Like,I don’t like I don’t have a lot of guy friends, because I get along with girls more.”, And then they hit on like all their girlfriends.And then Yeah, it’s it’s weird.It’s really weird.>> Don’t give me war flashbacks, please.>> Yeah.

I also think guys that talk [ __ ] a lot are not, >> I think that’s just [ __ ] talkers in general.>> That’s true.Girls that talk [ __ ] are not >> Any [ __ ] talker,if they talk [ __ ] to you about other people, they’re talking [ __ ] about you,too.>> Mhm.>> 100%.>> 100% tall.>> I had to learn that lesson too many times.>> I just never [ __ ] with it, so no drama.No drama.The only drama is the only drama I cause for myself.For the plot.I was like streaming on Twitch like maybe like a few days ago, 5 days ago.Oh, 10 subs,I will I will text my IG crush.Different from my boss crush.This is it’s just a delusional [ __ ] you know?And then I was like, “Oh,I’ll text my IG crush if someone gifts 10 subs.” And then someone did.And then chat had to decide what kind of message I send him.”Hi, I’m no longer human.Can you make me no longer single?” Do you think that would work?>> I it I mean, I’m not responsible.Chat, I thought you were going to tell the whole story.

Okay, but would it work on you?”Hey, I’m no longer human.Can you make me no longer single?”, >> I’d probably clip it and post it on my story >> [laughter] >> cuz it’s funny.>> Oh, wow.Okay.Okay, I’m going to get clipped.>> I’m joking.I would not do that.>> Like live reacting to what the IG crush said on Twitch.And then they were like, “That was smooth,not going to lie.” And I was like Guys, I was like freaking out.I was like, “Oh my god,they responded.What the [ __ ] I thought I was going to get blocked, like boom.And then I was like, “Oh,what do I say now?” And then she was like,>> [music] >> “They didn’t say no.” So then I I typed exactly that.They said, “Sorry,I don’t eat date.” But then they said,>> [music] >> “You cute though.” And I was like, “Wait,that’s great.That’s great.” But yeah, it’s funny.They seem cool though.>> [music] >> You give them that.I’m happy being single.>> You have so much more freedom.>> I don’t know if it’s freedom,

it’s just like I’m just content with myself right now.>> I think it’s good to be able to do things alone.>> Yeah, I always do things alone.And I think that’s why like I craved like a >> [music] >> companionship, for so long, cuz it’s like,“Oh,I’ve been alone for so long that it’s just the norm.” I don’t mind being alone,but it’s just like I don’t like the, feeling of like I’ll never really belong anywhere.The hip of lonely, that is like the driving force to seek out a person.Cuz I love going to places by myself and eating by myself.>> I always really admired you for that.>> But like once you like experience that kind of warmth of someone else,like first time experiencing that warmth,I’ll like how can go back to just being alone again, I guess.>> Honestly, you’re seeing again,guys.Another one.Yes.>> One for my hands.>> Which side do you want to do?>> Wait, wait.I want this side.>> You have cleaner?>> Um just saline.>> Yeah.You have it.If you don’t have it, you can buy one here.

Uh I I have it.>> Why [clears throat] the [ __ ] you lying?[music] >> Why?>> I’m scared for you.>> Yes.>> How long does it usually take to get this one?>> One and a half month.>> One and a half.I’m probably more scared than you are.>> me?You saw me get a belly button piercing like half a week ago.>> That was scary, though.>> I give you a little bit longer for healing, okay?Because sometimes the swelling get trouble.>> Yeah.>> Don’t change it unless it is completely healed.>> Mhm.Got it.>> Hold on.>> Hi blog.We just We just did the piercing.Um I literally, We were just sitting on a bench, and I pulled out my TikTok where I was just doom scrolling, and then I saw that piercing for like maybe a minute and then I was like,“Hey, we’re next to us like some piercing places.Should I go get it?” >> Yes.>> And then one place said, “Oh,there’re piercing guys in here.” And then the other one was like, “Oh,it’s 30 30 bucks.” And I was like, “Hey,yo,that’s like a good deal.”.

said if he was here it would have been 45 and then we found one that’s a $15, cheaper.>> I was like, “Damn.” I was like,“Damn, girl.” I feel like maybe I could do the other side myself.>> I mean, if you want.>> I feel like it didn’t It wasn’t that bad.>> Ah.You’re like squeezing my hand really hard, though.>> No, because he did it so slow.>> Ah.>> I feel like if I did it, it would also be slow,so I would >> Ah.>> But like the thing is when I did my lips, I closed my eyes.>> Ah.>> Anyways, y’all,I did not record a proper ending for this video, so I should just leave it here.>> You’re fired.

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